I was the class clown as a kid, who toggled from either being loved or hated by the other kids. I always marched to my own drum, so it's always been really hard for me to fit into anything. My first love for this art probably started in drama class in elementary school. I always got in trouble for being a class clown, but this was my chance to have all the attention on me and give my creativity the spotlight.
My artistic interests are divided between a genre of short skits I dub "extreme buffoonery," one epic film, and music.
The extreme buffoonery is endless, as it is very much an ongoing thing with me in my day to day thoughts. Some of the stuff I do takes stupidity to a whole new level, and my biggest problem is that I feel that no one would want to do that type of stuff with me. Most people have standards. I don't. If it makes me laugh, it makes me laugh. So much of the time I am plotting how to do this stuff on my own. I post skits on facebook that are mildly funny on a whim sometimes, but find I always save the stuff I really laugh hard about until I am able to do it better production wise. Yet it never seems to happen. It's a lonely place to be sometimes.
The one epic film I want to do is going to be called , "The East, the West, and the Afterlife" and pretty much encompasses everything I have to say about the long-term future of humanity in one film, and is not at all a comedy. This is a big production dream for me, and something that feels very important for me to do before I die, and is more aligned with my personal purpose. But the buffoonery and music, while more trivial, are still a passion I can't do without.
Have recently registered a trademark for my musical artist name, and am pretty much obligated to put out at least one song for commercial intent in order to keep the trademark, so that is what I am currently working on. Like comedy, I have always reserved my best stuff until I am able to do it better. Most of what I do musically is emotional, or Rockin, but I have ideas for funny stuff too. I have certainly devoted far more energy toward music that I have toward film in life, but it doesn't really mean I love one more than the other.
Finding time to do all the things I like to do has always been a challenge for me, and I have wasted a lot of years of my life just from where hardship has taken me. As far as the amount of time I spend alone, I have recently concluded that I need to gravitate more toward people that have similar interests as me and to stay as productive as possible. (Between menial paid labour and being my own maid of course)